Since I wrote on the HappenStance website that the press was ‘winding down’, I’ve been thinking about that phrase. I see a clock in my mind. The kind of clock you wind up mechanically. But you can’t wind down a clock. And ‘winding up’ means both winding up a clock and finishing something completely. And a ‘wind up’ (as opposed to ‘getting the wind up’) is a bluff or a joke.
I don’t even remember when people started to use the term ‘winding down’ to mean doing less, as a prelude to stopping. I only know it arrived in common usage at some point. What I meant was that I had almost, but not quite, stopped publishing. I was teetering, with some regret, on the edge. Matthew Stewart’s book Whatever You Do, Just Don’t was going to be the last one.
We do have, nevertheless, books and pamphlets that remain unsold. Until recently they were in boxes or piles, on shelves, on the stairs, under the stairs, on the floor, in a cupboard. Everywhere. Part of ‘winding down’ has involved tidying up, dusting the books, putting everything neatly where it can easily be found. Or nearly. It has been a huge job.
On the website, I’ve now listed all the unsold pamphlets. While sorting through, I found a few I didn’t even know were there. That was quite exciting. If you’re missing one you always wanted, take a look, just in case. They’re priced at a fiver each and that will also cover postage. One of these days, some of them will be valuable, if they aren’t already.
Age creeps up silently. I am seventy-two, which is why I’m winding down, though I’m still busy. And to my surprise, there’s going to be one more book, and it’s imminent.
There’s a story behind this unexpected book. Fourteen years ago I was about to publish a debut pamphlet by a London-based poet called Richard Meier. And then Richard emailed out of the blue to say he’d won the Picador poetry prize, which meant Picador would bring out his first book. No need for a pamphlet at all.
I was happy for him, of course. And we kept in touch over the years. Between 2013 and 2019, Picador brought out first Misadventure, and then Search Party.
I knew Richard had also finished a third collection and was looking around for a publisher (Picador had changed its editor). Then he told me he’d had some bad health news. There was a worrying diagnosis, and he would be having some urgent treatment. Which proved unsuccessful.
It comes as a cold shock when you realise that ‘getting better’, which you’ve always taken for granted, may not happen. Or not in the way you’d hoped. Finding treatment that might prove effective becomes your first priority. Meanwhile, you have to live with illness. And those poems — what about them?
Publishers often take three years to bring a book out. And Richard’s third collection hadn’t even found a home yet. You’ve already guessed the end of this story. Things do sometimes come full circle. I was able, gladly, to offer to bring out a publication for him, and quickly. One good thing about ‘winding down’ is that no other publications are waiting to be done.
And this is a lovely book — not short, but light. It’s like a gallery, a white cube with huge walls. Or possibly a huge lake, into which the poems drop one by one like pebbles. The poems are short, so there’s plenty of space for ripples. Richard has always been an understater, an intense thinker. Each page opens out for miles. It leaves you thinking — leaves you more open than you were before. Or so it seems to me.
We’ve kept the price low but the production values high. I think this really is the last HappenStance full collection. The official publication date for After the Miracle is October 2, but you can order in advance, if you want to. It’s in the HappenStance shop already.





